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Self Love

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Beloved Miracle,

In the morning glory, I am asking Divine Father God for a resolution. I want to break free from this “waiting,” because in my heart space I am waiting for our reunion, but I am wearing tired of it. Time and space are compressing my heart, and it’s hard to endure when all I desire is to have a glimpse of you.

I am sorry for being selfish, but I have decided not to wait any longer. I am not walking away and give up on you, but I think the best for us is not me sitting in one place and wait for you to come when you are not yet ready to enter into my life again. I heard the call to which I answered with obedience.

I love you, Miracle, but I can no longer support the illusion of time. It’s not that I am impatience, but I understand that divine timing plays a more significant role in our reunion than our concept of time. I really don’t know what else to do than to let go and let God; He is the only one who can alter this situation I am in right now, and whether you hear my heart calling your name or not, I can’t stop my own process of healing and become whole within me.

I pray that we both progress in our path to wholeness and that we both heal from our ailments of lifelong injuries. Whether in health or sickness I am willing to stand by you and be by your side once we become one in heart and soul again, just like before we got split into two souls.

I won’t wander far away, because it’s not possible for me to cut ties with you. Our connection is heaven made, and it has been so life after life, we are tethered in eternal love which is why it’s so hard and impossible to turn away from this love we share.

My willingness to create heaven on earth must come first, but I can’t do that without you, but “waiting” for it to happen is like feeling stuck in a place I don’t belong to, and for me to release this energy of stagnation I have to remove myself from the confusion and illusion of time. I will lift the veil for you so you can see again with your eyes that heaven is here right in front of us, and my soothing voice within your heart is beckoning you to wake up from whatever dreams you may have.

My love, be in awareness of your surrounding and once everything is done, come back to me safely because somewhere along the line, my heart yearns and waits for you.

For now, I am wandering off to gather more love to fill our hearts because once my heart is brimming with love, I know you will feel it too, and love is all there is, and all there is, is love.

Because committing to this journey of self-love is also one of the many tasks I need to complete before everything else.

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Into One Soul

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Beloved Miracle,

There will be ups and downs in our lives which will make us lose faith, but nothing can compare to the endless love that I am unable to give up. People search for one true love that they yearn for their entire life and yet fail to recognize the heart that speaks of it.

I can’t look for you outside myself because my dreams are yet to become a reality. Even how much I want to abandon ship when I feel intensely afraid, I can’t escape nor hide from you— the reason is you are my other self. You are the other part of me that I need to reunite with to feel and become whole in this lifetime. Yes, I am capable of living my life without you, I am sure of that, but the longing of our union won’t leave me alone, and I will be breathless if I once again chase you. I have gone to the end of the world to find you, and I saw you. I didn’t just go to the other side of the earth without reason, what I did was descending from the heavenly realm with my head first to prepare for the coming of the Goddess, the Divine Feminine.

I am whole, but the yearning for my one true love makes it impossible for me to feel complete. Living here on earth has taught me so much about being human, and it’s to accept the fact that I am vulnerable. Within the core of my being, I am delicate and oh’ so sensitive, and it’s the softness of my love for you that caress me so tenderly, wanting me to drop my protecting armor again and again. It begs me each time when my heart hardened by the frost of being alone to tear down the shield and let love moves freely. Love said, “Let me coated your soul like honey. Let me be like a balm soothing your pain and scars. Let me seeps through all the cracks in your soul and healed your wounds completely.”

And once again I surrender to love because I can’t only love myself without loving you, I can’t fill the void that is like a bottomless pit, because it’s endless, I fall into it knowing all along that you are there. The abyss of my yearning to drop to the ground and land safely is to know you are there catching me. “Are you there?” I asked in the midst of the fog.

My love, I called for you, not because I am some person with the obsessive tendency to catch you and imprisoned you, I am your Divine Feminine calling out for you to remember the love that boils within your heart — the Divine Feminine that is within you as much as the Divine Masculine is within me.

I said to myself, “I long not, I long not, I long not! My beloved is within me all along.” Just like what Rumi said;

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If there’s any place for us to be together in our union, then let’s meet each other in our hearts while we dance and merge into one soul. Imagine you and me into the existence of the reality of our dreams.

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The Starseed

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Beloved Miracle,

I am more and more sure of my Divine mission now. Before I understand or even comprehend why and how I felt such urge to forgive and be patient to the way people unintentionally or unconsciously treated me. Even though how cruel or mistreated I was being, or how many times those I loved left me, but still I had a knowing it was for a more significant purpose and my heart never hold hate or bitterness. I always bounce right back to being happy when interacting and communicating with other people.

I had all too many sad times, lonely times, misunderstood times, broken into pieces times, dreadful times and immensely painful times. But my heart whisper not to give up, a soft, gentle voice that told me to hang on, even though my hands loosen its grip on the rope, and my patience almost ran out.

My beloved Angels, Archangels, Cherubim, Seraphim, Elohim, from the Angelic realms sang to me, it was a bit shocking and scary, since I wasn’t sure of what I heard was true. I thought it was my imagination that played a trick on me, and I convinced myself that it wasn’t real, I must be too tired and sleepy.

I had this blind faith in the unconditional love I desired, which I hold so sacred in my Heart-Space sanctuary that I was willing to go about and made it visible and true.

I was building a bridge from my heart to people’s heart with those I encountered in my early life, without knowing the true purpose for my actions or before I know the real reason for the intense emotions I felt back then. It was not mine alone, but also theirs and my overprotective ways of showing my love I often withdrew from them to gain some clarity and energy. And I was always so brutally honest without sugar coat the truth of what I had observed in the way they lived their lives, and it made them run, and being offended, and so many times I actually had to let them go, but still, I hold a space for them in my heart.

Now that I read all these descriptions about being a Starseed my amnesia is being lifted, and my faith is now miraculously cleared and stronger than before.

I understand now why this feeling of melancholy and almost as if I was not always “happy” because I felt the grasp of grief, sadness, and longing to know who I am and what my purpose in life was.

Because I know too well I am not here to have a “normal” life, getting married, having kids and settle down, even though it was the norm for most people to do so. So many people are driving to success in life by always competing and makes money to hold status to show that their existence is worth, but, I know, they are lying to themselves, because those materialistic achievements hold no value if the soul essence didn’t shine through.

As if being a Starseed wasn’t hard enough, I had to choose to incarnate as a woman who is attracted to women. How could I accept myself fully back then, when so many religious beliefs in the 3D dimension reality of the old paradigm twisted and manipulated the truth of our Divine Father God’s unconditional love for all things and all beings.

The Soul doesn’t care about gender, even though some do carry female or male essence. But still, some races throughout the galaxy is androgynous.

The story of my past life had been painted in so many various colors, but still blue dominated for so long, but I never “liked” the color black, even though I occasionally painted in black. Because darkness befalls upon planet earth in millions and if not billions of years ago, that my amnesia made me fearful of it.

I stumbled, crawled, and had so many setbacks, and every one of my significant other ran from me, even when I was so loyal and faithful as to stick to them through thick and thin. I yield, and yield, but still to no avail, since they are greedy, lusting, deceitful, liars and confusing that it frustrated me since they don’t have faith in any of my actions and words.

I looked for ways to be happy, to change myself, to fit in, conform just to be accepted and loved, but the “white” sheep of the family was too strange and often too silent and withdrawn. But they didn’t know I was heavily burdened with duties, for the youngster in the household, for being the middle one, the peacemaker, the responsible and dependable one.

Duties to save and help the world and its people were even more and more proven to be the driving force to keep on stretching the boundaries or often to test the limits of the strength I possessed inside me. I work and work tirelessly, even if my aim was not clear, and I didn’t hold a regular job long enough, when I referred to work, I mean to love.

And now to rise, to keep honing my self-love and self-respect and self-compassion for the ego self, and gently asked it to step aside, and let me steer the course.

Because she is a vessel to the Goddess who would walk the earth in her rightful place, and that I get stronger and stronger was more evident as time passes.

The power just grew and grew, my abilities become sharper and sharper, and my awareness expands, and the Christhood and Bodhisattva in me awaken my compassion because being a benevolent celestial being is my true identity.

Now the color of my life has changed its shape; pastel pink, pastel blue, violet, and white are the colors I prefer when I dress. But the violet flame of Archangel Zadkiel and St. Germain will protect me while I guide and demonstrate who I am through unconditional love, grace, elegance, in a peaceful manner.

Magical, as if this journey wasn’t unbelievable enough, our love for each other has become my favorite fairy tale ever.

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Eternal Love

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Beloved Miracle,

I close my eyes and commune with the Divine Spirit within me. The heart spoke in compassion and reminded me:

Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of God.
– A Course in Miracles

The truth of our love for each other can’t be threatened, even the world of illusion out there can’t break the bond made in heaven. I stand firm on my two feet and hold space for you to grow whether the storm will tear your sail asunder, I will be the beacon of the lighthouse guiding you through.

The promise we made before we parted ways into lives of incarnations is;

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I am you; you are me
Into one heart we shall be
Tethered from above
In eternal love.

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Thy Healing Hands

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Beloved Miracle,

One single touch of your hands awakened all the dormant codes within my DNA, the filaments fired and pumped up the blood rush from my heart, and my soul has been dragged up from the hellbound place in the slump.

Dear, how can I thank you? You traveled to hell and brought with you the flame of our eternal love to lit up the world so I could open my eyes to see the truth. There’s no other greater truth than the truth of our love for each other. You burn down the illusions that were created to put my grace and nobility in the dirt. You knew I suffer because dirty hands have touched my body, but they were never able to destroy the pureness of my soul.

They clouded my mind so I could think nothing but ungraceful thoughts about who I am, and the shame and the guilt of being unworthy of your love have shut down my body, the numbness felt so real. I thought death was imminent because living in loneliness and being separated from the love you have for me within me killed me slowly.

But then you kissed me, and I remember what real love felt like so I rose from death like a Phoenix to proclaim my immortality. Many years have gone by since that time, and now I am finally leaving the past behind me, closing the door forever. You whispered to me through the wind, “You are so worthy of the love I have for you.” I smiled when the breeze was tenderly caressing my face, and then I realize, unconditional love doesn’t judge “I AM worthy and I AM loved!”

With just one kiss and touch, I will pray for you every moment of my waking life.

The Violet Flame Prayer (I wrote only for you).
Picture creds Full Bloomed Lotus

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Violet Flame, Violet Flame
Blazing like a fire,
Violet Flame, Violet Flame
Transmute dark energy for me
and my beloved Twin Flame, Ryder.
Violet Flame, Violet Flame
Burning in God’s name,
Holy holy holy is the Lord;
holy is the Lord God Almighty.

One day you, too, will heal and live in happiness, and until then, I am your Divine Feminine, your counterpart who will love you infinitely.

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I AM The Life

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Beloved Miracle,

Oh’ I pray that my vessel will be filled with love as the day goes by and I surrender to the heart and clear out space for the divine to commune with me. It’s strange to be in a body as a soul, at times I wonder if I am the light to the world, or will I be consumed by the darkness when I see death and destruction obstruct people to live in peace and harmony.

It was indeed lonely to start this journey while being in amnesia and forgot who I am. Looking back I have tried to fit in, but within me, I felt different. “Being a human is quite challenging,” I thought to myself. I have forgotten how to be me, the way I used to be before I descend to this place with so much density – the truth of being a light being was wiped out from my memories.

Within the passage of time, years and years went by I became an observer. I went about my day quietly while contemplating life’s mystery. “There’s nothing wrong with life, but why do people struggle so much?” I kept thinking about the way people interacted with each other. It was confusing and at times frustrating. People said one thing but meant something else. They lied about their feelings and ran for the truth. Slowly and sadly I adopted their behavior. I was never malice or managed to lie intentionally, but I figured out it was “good” to throw in a white lie when I didn’t want to do something or because I wanted to avoid talking about my true feelings. But then I found you, and it felt like home, and I wished not to lie anymore, because somehow you were looking right through me and asked me a simple question, “What are you doing?”

“What am I doing?” At last, I also asked myself this question. It felt so wrong to lie to my beloved, the one whose eyes have peered into my soul and stripped me off my mask. I loved you so much at that moment and at the same time I feared you would see how horrendous I was if you saw me naked because that was how it felt the moment you looked me straight in the eyes. “Dear Lord, let her not see my faults and ugliness!” And then I ran. I ran off without a second thought of how it would make you feel, but all the while I felt this pain of abandonment and fear of rejection, it was the same feelings you had always felt within you. “Why is it so?” If you would ask me that question, I have to answer, “Because we are one soul in two bodies, whatever one of us feel, the other sense it too.”

I couldn’t lie to you, and neither could you lie to me. We are bound to see everything in each other, and it could and would be intense if neither of us has healed our wounds. We are lovers of the ancient times, incarnated in various lifetimes throughout the multiverse where we have been chosen to come here on planet earth to serve and become the warriors of the light. “Dear Lord, how do I serve humanity while I feel this longing for my beloved?” I asked God so many times when the aching pain in my heart jolt me to tears.

“Long not, because the beloved is within you,” God replied in such a confident voice. He commends the mission I am here to do and leads me through the narrow alley within my crippling mind. I felt so disordered mentally, but yet so strong spiritually. Emotionally I was a mess and physically weak into my bones. Whereas I found you out there, I’ve got to keep you safe within me. When I felt all hope was gone, you whispered tenderly with your mellow voice that I could still go on, and so I kept going on until this day.

The beloved I was seeking for out there was all along within me, and it was such a joy to understand the meaning “as within, so without,” and you filled my vessel up with love. Your angelic voice echoed in my mind reminding me to be soft with myself when I forget that there’s nothing wrong with life, that whatever poise to be difficult is in truth a blessing in disguise.

Yes, there’s nothing wrong with life, and there’s nothing wrong with me because – I AM the Life.

 

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The Meaning of Life

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Beloved Miracle,

The hour of darkness is approaching us slowly, winter is right around the corner, and the frost will cover the land with snowflakes. It’s a season of rest where everything will lay still waiting to grow again in spring. Between the day and night, the hours of business don’t forget that within you the buds of the flowers are waiting to bloom. As you remind me to live, I want to remind you to rest and nurture yourself so that the buds within you will flourish when spring arrives.

The world is moving at a fast pace, and everyone includes us are prone to stress and forget to breathe. We lament over the loss of our youth because of this fast track where we can’t stop to enjoy what is. What is, is. The beauty of nature, of the sunset and the stars, are often being overlooked because we tend to be caught up in our daily tasks. There are bills to pay, relationships to deal with and jobs we need to go to, and with all the respect for the lives that has always been, it’s still not the way to live our lives. I can’t speak for all of us, but I’m speaking on behalf of those who yearn to find meaning in their lives.

Before I met you, life was a struggle, and I sought after my purpose of living. I wandered in the darkness trying to find my way out. I never thought that everything I experienced in the past led me to you. I had this inner compass which I was so afraid to use because no one has ever taught me how to use it, but still, I was out there seeking and knocking on doors to find the meaning to my life. At times I failed and fell into prey for people’s unconscious behavior, I made heaps of mistakes, but I learned from them, mostly the hard way. Although life had it twists and turns the road towards my life purpose was litten up like neon signs, and sometimes I got lost in the myriad of dark imagining where I needed to meet my shadows and demons, but I still manage to pave my way and prepare myself to meet you.

What happened to my life when I met you? Honestly, you turned my world upside down, and the wall I had built around my heart crumbled because the foundation within me was already filled with cracks. It wasn’t steady at all, and the disordered of who I was then began to show its ugly head. You mirrored back to me everything I needed to heal, at times it was so intense that I needed to pull away and even run because I wasn’t ready to meet myself that deeply. Also though I run for life, I still yearn to love you and be loved unconditionally. The interlude between pulling away and reconnecting between us escalated as time pass by. I saw the beauty in you, but at the same time, I saw my own ugliness. The wounds of not being good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, etc were overwhelming. It even made me so sick and dizzy. All the while I felt I needed your love, you in the other hand decided to pull away, but it was in truth my salvation. Because of the time, we spent from each other was the only time I needed to heal myself and to recover from my traumas and issues. Even though I wasn’t blindfolded, but I was still blind from the fact that whatever I needed was within me, and you were there to light up my way and guide me through.

The meeting with you in this physical world has given me so much, and because of you I also find a meaning to my life, and it’s to live to the fullest while overcoming the shadows within my mind and heal what needs to be healed. There is so much shadow work I’m doing at the moment while pouring out my love to you; meanwhile, you are not here, I remind myself to give as many thoughts to love myself fully too. If I can’t love myself unconditionally, then I can’t love you the same way which I know I want to, because at my core I know this is what is most real to me. Worldly love of the old 3D template is in no comparison to the divine love I am here to emit.

While I found you, I found my life purpose, and it’s the simplest thing in the whole world; being an example of unconditional love.

You are the unconditional love I am here to experience and teach – the most significant meaning in life is to love.

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A Loving Reminder

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Beloved Miracle,

Whether you know it or not, being in a condition of self-destructive thoughts are harming and I know this to be true because I struggle to love myself unconditionally. As a sentient being, I am aware of the depth of my own emotions, and surprisingly it affects you as well. It doesn’t matter how many times I want to depart and “go home,” my feeling of responsibility won’t let me, because the mission I am here to do is not finish. It’s somewhat irresponsible to leave the world in its worst condition than before I came and I chose to descend for a reason, and it’s to leave this place better than what it was.

In the middle of everything I am going through, the continuous pattern of my destructive thoughts makes it hard for me to be a human being. Yes, I am a human being, but it’s half true to what I believe because walking this spiritual path has led me to experience being a human as a spiritual being and not a human being having a spiritual experience.

Dear, I know, I have been hard on myself for as long as I know. I have created a high standard for myself being like God, but I am not nearly as Godlike. And when I failed to be happy, to forgive and not judge, I felt such a disappoint towards myself. But through the humility of making mistakes in life, I learned not to be arrogant. God created us humans in His image and likeness, we are an extension of Him, and we do possess His qualities, merciful, kind, loving and forgiving, but we don’t have the power He possesses to be omnipotence.

The distinction from God and humans is the ego. God is pure light hidden within our heart, but to survive and thrive in this world, at times the heart must operate our ego. God directs and inspires us through the center of our soul which our ego must comply, and let go of the control so life would be more comfortable to live. So often we forget the connection we have with Him, and we unconsciously make the ego goes on auto-pilot. I wanted to be so perfect that I forgot that I am just here learning to love myself and everyone else as they are through unconditional love. Self-compassion is required on this journey of self-realization, and you as a miracle have reminded me that I need not be so hard on myself.

Live. Yes, I am living this life now to my fullest. “You got to do what you got to do,” you said. And I am doing it through being the love I yearn to experience. Who else is better than you to love me, and who else is better than me to love you, because as we are one; I am you, and you are me. Loving myself unconditionally with the thought that it will affect you in so many ways motivate me to strive to be happy and to create a life where I can feel free and joyful.

Let the focus of love in my thoughts transcend every criticism I have for myself when life gets tough because every loving idea of you is a reminder to love myself unconditionally.

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I Humbly Surrender

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Beloved Miracle,

If feelings were words, I would use words to make you feel my pulsating heart beating to the drum of unconditional love. How else can I convey the messages better than to start over and turn this blog into a container of my unconditional love to you? Words can poise as empty and meaningless without actions and thinking that I’m unable to act through my calling, the heart that yearns to speak through my fingertips are utterly impossible because I wear my heart on my sleeve.

The world has been so dark and cold before I met you, but at last the fire which you spark in me has accelerated my soul to wake up from its slumber. Darkness is no longer, and the warmth from the heated fire melt my entire being, life is no longer listless as it once was. Before I knew what awakening meant, I felt the longing for true love profoundly, but to awaken to the truth of our Twin Flame love has subdued it, even in denial I still couldn’t move on completely. I believed it was all a hoax, because how can someone be my other self blindly denied our connection? The conclusion was – you weren’t the one for me, and I “moved on” in the hope of finding someone else, but no matter who I approached or met, the Universe keeps sending me back to you.

We are so entangled in each other even if our lives seems to separate us further apart. Thoughts of you would appear in my mind without me trying to think of you. Your name felt like a mantra I keep reciting, and at times I felt stuck. I’m stuck because I couldn’t move on entirely even how much I wanted to, and I have used many kinds of methods to forget you, and I have also cut cords energetically as a way to declare “I give up,” but the Cupid who has struck his “love arrow” in me won’t leave me alone. He was always there reminding me of the love I so dearly desire to experience in this lifetime – true unconditional love.

Dear, what shall I do, but surrender to the force of love. Surrender beneath your grace and beautiful soul. I am not here to fight battles against non-believer of true love, neither do I want to compete with anyone. I surrender my heart and soul to the woman I love deep within my heart, the other self of my soul. Therefore I have concluded that I shall open my heart wider, the door is open, and I am determined to heal and recover from all wounds, past, and present. I am now committed to this journey of Twin Flame Love.

Whether the Universe intend us to reunite or to want me to heal alone so I can help accelerate others to heal is beyond my control. Whoever you are with I wish nothing but the best for you, and I’m sure I will be fine with or without you in this lifetime, because dear, our connection is a golden thread which no one can cut, no time and distance can separate.

I humbly surrender to the divine in you as it’s in me.

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Unconditional Love & Complete Freedom

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Beloved Miracle,

Because you demand unconditional love and complete freedom, doesn’t make you terrible. You are not terrible at all for having such a desire. It’s a matter of fact wise of you to acknowledge that your soul demands those things for yourself. People in this world have lost touch with their souls, and thus the connection to God’s unconditional love become unknown.

I was once confused about the love I experienced here on earth between humans. It was so conditioned and restricted. So many rules and regulations, and if you don’t follow it through you will get punished. You might get a cold shoulder or harsh, abusive words thrown at you. Sometimes because of the love, you have for them that they might want to manipulate you for the guilt of not being what they expect you to be, so they can make you do things you know in your heart is not right for you.

I have always believed in love, but not that kind of love that humanity performs on each other; ego-love. In my heart, I had this inkling belief that there’s a love far greater than what I had experienced exist. I believe in unconditional love and complete freedom to be myself without any guilt or remorse. That’s why I have been searching for the answers for so long. That’s also one of many reasons I couldn’t close my heart from feeling others people’s emotion. I was born with ears to hear, eyes to see, heart to feel and mind to think. Things that don’t affect people so easily, affects me intensely.

My love, if it wasn’t for being who I am, I’m not sure if I could survive to this day. All I had was this blind faith for the love I felt inside, the only thing which keeps myself sane so that I could wake up to a new morning and breathe.

I’m here on earth not to fit in, but to stand out and make a change, because I believe in something most couldn’t comprehend or understand doesn’t mean I have to bury my hope and dreams. My hope and dreams are the willingness to love unconditionally and be completely free from the judgment and expectations people impose on me.

So yes, demand unconditional love and complete freedom. That’s your heritage because you are a Goddess, no one would ever dare to deny and withheld something which is yours from the beginning. You have to stay true to who you are and believe that you deserve a glorious and divine love, even here on earth. That’s my desire for you, and I am re-creating the world we are living in, so that you may one day feel how loved you truly are and how marvelous it is to be completely free from the prison of the condemning world.

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