Letting Go; An Act of Liberation

Beloved Miracle,

I honored your choice because it gave me a clear sign that I needed to let go completely and I did. It was liberating to move on without guilt and lingering to what we had. I realized I wanted something more, something reliable and stable. I also felt I deserve someone who will honor me for who I am and what I am here to contribute, a partnership where both can take responsibility for the actions and words we put forward.

In my heart I know I am in love with you and I still care for your well being, but as I walk further towards my own light and grow spiritually, I know letting go of what we had was necessary for us to maybe grow closer to each other on the 3D level of reality. What we had was at a low frequency and low vibration, it was co-dependency because I sought after your love from the outside and neglected myself.

The Twin Flames journey has been an ultimate challenge for me, and it has always challenged me to honor myself and love myself for who I am instead of looking for love and validation from someone else. You mirrored back to me what I needed to heal within me, and for each time you “ran” I was forced to look at the pain and suffering that surfaced within me. I know, it’s not easy when all you wanted was peace and carefree life, but as long as you still live a conditioned life and run back to your comfort zone where things feel more comfortable and safe things won’t get any better. Although I am the awakened one to the truth of our connection, I have to let you roam and explore your options while you are in your own process.

For once I want to stop all the blaming and bitterness towards you and release all anger for how you unconsciously treated me. We did what we can throughout our connection when we were in touch. It was designed that way, one of us must lead the way, and I chose to be the one who will walk ahead to clear out the path while you kept watching and guarded me towards my ascension. You hold space for me for so long, and now it’s time for me to hold the light and hold a space for you to grow in your own light towards your own ascension.

Reunion and union is a temptation and almost a fairy tale, but we can only reunite and be in the union by going inwards and walk the path and live the life we have design separately together. While in separation we are actually doing it together. Even though it doesn’t make sense, but we are in this together as we already agreed to before coming to this earth plane. Our soul bond is so strong that even if we are separate in the 3D reality, we are still connected spiritually. In separation, we are moving closer together as long as we realize that the time we are apart is the time to process and integrate our higher selves. We are granted the time to access the pain and limitations during our separation to heal.

True love is knowing the love is still there between us even if we aren’t “there” physically with each other. True love is knowing we can heal and help each other by treating ourselves with care and loving ourselves, by nurturing individually in our own time instead of demanding the attention and care from each other regularly. Neither of us has abandoned the other. The circumstances we are in, what we have decided to experience in this life was a designation to make us both grow in unconditional love. It’s our mission to show the world that true love exists, and not only true love alone but unconditional love is our heritage and the most natural love there’s in the whole cosmos.

I can’t spark a light within you without moving on. This sudden change might feel uncomfortable and even painful, but eventually, you will understand the reason why I chose to “move on.” I can’t weather the storm by being passive in my own life, and I can’t put it on hold, at least not any longer. I feel you regardless, and despite distance and separation, you will always live within my heart and dance in my soul.

Once you decide to look for me, I hope we will come closer to our unconditional love and live it without shame and guilt, that our desire will eventually come true for the sake of humanity.

a.a

Self Love

Beloved Miracle,

In the morning glory, I am asking Divine Father God for a resolution. I want to break free from this “waiting,” because in my heart space I am waiting for our reunion, but I am wearing tired of it. Time and space are compressing my heart, and it’s hard to endure when all I desire is to have a glimpse of you.

I am sorry for being selfish, but I have decided not to wait any longer. I am not walking away and give up on you, but I think the best for us is not me sitting in one place and wait for you to come when you are not yet ready to enter into my life again. I heard the call to which I answered with obedience.

I love you, Miracle, but I can no longer support the illusion of time. It’s not that I am impatience, but I understand that divine timing plays a more significant role in our reunion than our concept of time. I really don’t know what else to do than to let go and let God; He is the only one who can alter this situation I am in right now, and whether you hear my heart calling your name or not, I can’t stop my own process of healing and become whole within me.

I pray that we both progress in our path to wholeness and that we both heal from our ailments of lifelong injuries. Whether in health or sickness I am willing to stand by you and be by your side once we become one in heart and soul again, just like before we got split into two souls.

I won’t wander far away, because it’s not possible for me to cut ties with you. Our connection is heaven made, and it has been so life after life, we are tethered in eternal love which is why it’s so hard and impossible to turn away from this love we share.

My willingness to create heaven on earth must come first, but I can’t do that without you, but “waiting” for it to happen is like feeling stuck in a place I don’t belong to, and for me to release this energy of stagnation I have to remove myself from the confusion and illusion of time. I will lift the veil for you so you can see again with your eyes that heaven is here right in front of us, and my soothing voice within your heart is beckoning you to wake up from whatever dreams you may have.

My love, be in awareness of your surrounding and once everything is done, come back to me safely because somewhere along the line, my heart yearns and waits for you.

For now, I am wandering off to gather more love to fill our hearts because once my heart is brimming with love, I know you will feel it too, and love is all there is, and all there is, is love.

Because committing to this journey of self-love is also one of the many tasks I need to complete before everything else.

beau taplin self love

a.a

The Starseed

Beloved Miracle,

I am more and more sure of my Divine mission now. Before I understand or even comprehend why and how I felt such urge to forgive and be patient to the way people unintentionally or unconsciously treated me. Even though how cruel or mistreated I was being, or how many times those I loved left me, but still I had a knowing it was for a more significant purpose and my heart never hold hate or bitterness. I always bounce right back to being happy when interacting and communicating with other people.

I had all too many sad times, lonely times, misunderstood times, broken into pieces times, dreadful times and immensely painful times. But my heart whisper not to give up, a soft, gentle voice that told me to hang on, even though my hands loosen its grip on the rope, and my patience almost ran out.

My beloved Angels, Archangels, Cherubim, Seraphim, Elohim, from the Angelic realms sang to me, it was a bit shocking and scary, since I wasn’t sure of what I heard was true. I thought it was my imagination that played a trick on me, and I convinced myself that it wasn’t real, I must be too tired and sleepy.

I had this blind faith in the unconditional love I desired, which I hold so sacred in my Heart-Space sanctuary that I was willing to go about and made it visible and true.

I was building a bridge from my heart to people’s heart with those I encountered in my early life, without knowing the true purpose for my actions or before I know the real reason for the intense emotions I felt back then. It was not mine alone, but also theirs and my overprotective ways of showing my love I often withdrew from them to gain some clarity and energy. And I was always so brutally honest without sugar coat the truth of what I had observed in the way they lived their lives, and it made them run, and being offended, and so many times I actually had to let them go, but still, I hold a space for them in my heart.

Now that I read all these descriptions about being a Starseed my amnesia is being lifted, and my faith is now miraculously cleared and stronger than before.

I understand now why this feeling of melancholy and almost as if I was not always “happy” because I felt the grasp of grief, sadness, and longing to know who I am and what my purpose in life was.

Because I know too well I am not here to have a “normal” life, getting married, having kids and settle down, even though it was the norm for most people to do so. So many people are driving to success in life by always competing and makes money to hold status to show that their existence is worth, but, I know, they are lying to themselves, because those materialistic achievements hold no value if the soul essence didn’t shine through.

As if being a Starseed wasn’t hard enough, I had to choose to incarnate as a woman who is attracted to women. How could I accept myself fully back then, when so many religious beliefs in the 3D dimension reality of the old paradigm twisted and manipulated the truth of our Divine Father God’s unconditional love for all things and all beings.

The Soul doesn’t care about gender, even though some do carry female or male essence. But still, some races throughout the galaxy is androgynous.

The story of my past life had been painted in so many various colors, but still blue dominated for so long, but I never “liked” the color black, even though I occasionally painted in black. Because darkness befalls upon planet earth in millions and if not billions of years ago, that my amnesia made me fearful of it.

I stumbled, crawled, and had so many setbacks, and every one of my significant other ran from me, even when I was so loyal and faithful as to stick to them through thick and thin. I yield, and yield, but still to no avail, since they are greedy, lusting, deceitful, liars and confusing that it frustrated me since they don’t have faith in any of my actions and words.

I looked for ways to be happy, to change myself, to fit in, conform just to be accepted and loved, but the “white” sheep of the family was too strange and often too silent and withdrawn. But they didn’t know I was heavily burdened with duties, for the youngster in the household, for being the middle one, the peacemaker, the responsible and dependable one.

Duties to save and help the world and its people were even more and more proven to be the driving force to keep on stretching the boundaries or often to test the limits of the strength I possessed inside me. I work and work tirelessly, even if my aim was not clear, and I didn’t hold a regular job long enough, when I referred to work, I mean to love.

And now to rise, to keep honing my self-love and self-respect and self-compassion for the ego self, and gently asked it to step aside, and let me steer the course.

Because she is a vessel to the Goddess who would walk the earth in her rightful place, and that I get stronger and stronger was more evident as time passes.

The power just grew and grew, my abilities become sharper and sharper, and my awareness expands, and the Christhood and Bodhisattva in me awaken my compassion because being a benevolent celestial being is my true identity.

Now the color of my life has changed its shape; pastel pink, pastel blue, violet, and white are the colors I prefer when I dress. But the violet flame of Archangel Zadkiel and St. Germain will protect me while I guide and demonstrate who I am through unconditional love, grace, elegance, in a peaceful manner.

Magical, as if this journey wasn’t unbelievable enough, our love for each other has become my favorite fairy tale ever.

a.a