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The Devotion of The Goddess

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Beloved Miracle,

What is better than the devotion of a Goddess who loves her beloved, her other self? Being in commitment to this Twin Flames mission has taken me to the highest peak of the mountain and the most profound depth of the ocean. I have felt the earthshaking rumble of the heart of Mother Gaia because of this adoration and admiration of my love to you.

At times when the flame of passion in me glowing faintly, you came and rekindled it with your encouragement and to sustain it I have to go into seclusion, away from the world out there. It’s not because I’m hiding in the shade and become a hermit, but it’s for self-perseverance, and it’s to feel serene and saint from a world which is not yet in harmony.

The altar within my Heart-space sanctuary is sacred, and it’s where I pray and commune with the divine feminine within me, the Goddess who also gently stripping away my false self so I can transform into her. This bodily vessel of mine is her to take and yours to keep, but first, she will cleanse and purify it before our union happens. Whether it occurs in spirit or this physical world, I will not resist the temptation to be whole again, because when our soul split into two, I have longed for you in lifetimes of incarnations. Who knows how long our separation has been because time is just a portion of our imagination in mind, an illusion, yet we are living in the moment of now, and doesn’t a moment feel like an eternity sometimes?

When the moon pulls my hair and makes the ebb and flow in my emotions, it robs me of my sleep, and then I know the Goddess has given me a quest to dive deeper into the ocean where she has hidden the treasure, the power of will. And even if the waves throw me back to the shore, I can’t stop because if I may not have this power, I will wither slowly and lose my way.

I have this innate ability to be resilient, remaining calm in the midst of chaos and a heart that swell with compassion and love. The Goddess has spoken, the luminous path she has put me on can’t be delay any further. While I am not beside you, my sweet, sweet love, I pray for you to find as much courage as you have given me to live a life you secretly desire for yourself within the altar of my Heart-space sanctuary, with or without me.

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I AM The Life

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Beloved Miracle,

Oh’ I pray that my vessel will be filled with love as the day goes by and I surrender to the heart and clear out space for the divine to commune with me. It’s strange to be in a body as a soul, at times I wonder if I am the light to the world, or will I be consumed by the darkness when I see death and destruction obstruct people to live in peace and harmony.

It was indeed lonely to start this journey while being in amnesia and forgot who I am. Looking back I have tried to fit in, but within me, I felt different. “Being a human is quite challenging,” I thought to myself. I have forgotten how to be me, the way I used to be before I descend to this place with so much density – the truth of being a light being was wiped out from my memories.

Within the passage of time, years and years went by I became an observer. I went about my day quietly while contemplating life’s mystery. “There’s nothing wrong with life, but why do people struggle so much?” I kept thinking about the way people interacted with each other. It was confusing and at times frustrating. People said one thing but meant something else. They lied about their feelings and ran for the truth. Slowly and sadly I adopted their behavior. I was never malice or managed to lie intentionally, but I figured out it was “good” to throw in a white lie when I didn’t want to do something or because I wanted to avoid talking about my true feelings. But then I found you, and it felt like home, and I wished not to lie anymore, because somehow you were looking right through me and asked me a simple question, “What are you doing?”

“What am I doing?” At last, I also asked myself this question. It felt so wrong to lie to my beloved, the one whose eyes have peered into my soul and stripped me off my mask. I loved you so much at that moment and at the same time I feared you would see how horrendous I was if you saw me naked because that was how it felt the moment you looked me straight in the eyes. “Dear Lord, let her not see my faults and ugliness!” And then I ran. I ran off without a second thought of how it would make you feel, but all the while I felt this pain of abandonment and fear of rejection, it was the same feelings you had always felt within you. “Why is it so?” If you would ask me that question, I have to answer, “Because we are one soul in two bodies, whatever one of us feel, the other sense it too.”

I couldn’t lie to you, and neither could you lie to me. We are bound to see everything in each other, and it could and would be intense if neither of us has healed our wounds. We are lovers of the ancient times, incarnated in various lifetimes throughout the multiverse where we have been chosen to come here on planet earth to serve and become the warriors of the light. “Dear Lord, how do I serve humanity while I feel this longing for my beloved?” I asked God so many times when the aching pain in my heart jolt me to tears.

“Long not, because the beloved is within you,” God replied in such a confident voice. He commends the mission I am here to do and leads me through the narrow alley within my crippling mind. I felt so disordered mentally, but yet so strong spiritually. Emotionally I was a mess and physically weak into my bones. Whereas I found you out there, I’ve got to keep you safe within me. When I felt all hope was gone, you whispered tenderly with your mellow voice that I could still go on, and so I kept going on until this day.

The beloved I was seeking for out there was all along within me, and it was such a joy to understand the meaning “as within, so without,” and you filled my vessel up with love. Your angelic voice echoed in my mind reminding me to be soft with myself when I forget that there’s nothing wrong with life, that whatever poise to be difficult is in truth a blessing in disguise.

Yes, there’s nothing wrong with life, and there’s nothing wrong with me because – I AM the Life.

 

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