The Meaning of Life

Beloved Miracle,

The hour of darkness is approaching us slowly, winter is right around the corner, and the frost will cover the land with snowflakes. It’s a season of rest where everything will lay still waiting to grow again in spring. Between the day and night, the hours of business don’t forget that within you the buds of the flowers are waiting to bloom. As you remind me to live, I want to remind you to rest and nurture yourself so that the buds within you will flourish when spring arrives.

The world is moving at a fast pace, and everyone includes us are prone to stress and forget to breathe. We lament over the loss of our youth because of this fast track where we can’t stop to enjoy what is. What is, is. The beauty of nature, of the sunset and the stars, are often being overlooked because we tend to be caught up in our daily tasks. There are bills to pay, relationships to deal with and jobs we need to go to, and with all the respect for the lives that has always been, it’s still not the way to live our lives. I can’t speak for all of us, but I’m speaking on behalf of those who yearn to find meaning in their lives.

Before I met you, life was a struggle, and I sought after my purpose of living. I wandered in the darkness trying to find my way out. I never thought that everything I experienced in the past led me to you. I had this inner compass which I was so afraid to use because no one has ever taught me how to use it, but still, I was out there seeking and knocking on doors to find the meaning to my life. At times I failed and fell into prey for people’s unconscious behavior, I made heaps of mistakes, but I learned from them, mostly the hard way. Although life had it twists and turns the road towards my life purpose was litten up like neon signs, and sometimes I got lost in the myriad of dark imagining where I needed to meet my shadows and demons, but I still manage to pave my way and prepare myself to meet you.

What happened to my life when I met you? Honestly, you turned my world upside down, and the wall I had built around my heart crumbled because the foundation within me was already filled with cracks. It wasn’t steady at all, and the disordered of who I was then began to show its ugly head. You mirrored back to me everything I needed to heal, at times it was so intense that I needed to pull away and even run because I wasn’t ready to meet myself that deeply. Also though I run for life, I still yearn to love you and be loved unconditionally. The interlude between pulling away and reconnecting between us escalated as time pass by. I saw the beauty in you, but at the same time, I saw my own ugliness. The wounds of not being good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, etc were overwhelming. It even made me so sick and dizzy. All the while I felt I needed your love, you in the other hand decided to pull away, but it was in truth my salvation. Because of the time, we spent from each other was the only time I needed to heal myself and to recover from my traumas and issues. Even though I wasn’t blindfolded, but I was still blind from the fact that whatever I needed was within me, and you were there to light up my way and guide me through.

The meeting with you in this physical world has given me so much, and because of you I also find a meaning to my life, and it’s to live to the fullest while overcoming the shadows within my mind and heal what needs to be healed. There is so much shadow work I’m doing at the moment while pouring out my love to you; meanwhile, you are not here, I remind myself to give as many thoughts to love myself fully too. If I can’t love myself unconditionally, then I can’t love you the same way which I know I want to, because at my core I know this is what is most real to me. Worldly love of the old 3D template is in no comparison to the divine love I am here to emit.

While I found you, I found my life purpose, and it’s the simplest thing in the whole world; being an example of unconditional love.

You are the unconditional love I am here to experience and teach – the most significant meaning in life is to love.

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A Loving Reminder

Beloved Miracle,

Whether you know it or not, being in a condition of self-destructive thoughts are harming and I know this to be true because I struggle to love myself unconditionally. As a sentient being, I am aware of the depth of my own emotions, and surprisingly it affects you as well. It doesn’t matter how many times I want to depart and “go home,” my feeling of responsibility won’t let me, because the mission I am here to do is not finish. It’s somewhat irresponsible to leave the world in its worst condition than before I came and I chose to descend for a reason, and it’s to leave this place better than what it was.

In the middle of everything I am going through, the continuous pattern of my destructive thoughts makes it hard for me to be a human being. Yes, I am a human being, but it’s half true to what I believe because walking this spiritual path has led me to experience being a human as a spiritual being and not a human being having a spiritual experience.

Dear, I know, I have been hard on myself for as long as I know. I have created a high standard for myself being like God, but I am not nearly as Godlike. And when I failed to be happy, to forgive and not judge, I felt such a disappoint towards myself. But through the humility of making mistakes in life, I learned not to be arrogant. God created us humans in His image and likeness, we are an extension of Him, and we do possess His qualities, merciful, kind, loving and forgiving, but we don’t have the power He possesses to be omnipotence.

The distinction from God and humans is the ego. God is pure light hidden within our heart, but to survive and thrive in this world, at times the heart must operate our ego. God directs and inspires us through the center of our soul which our ego must comply, and let go of the control so life would be more comfortable to live. So often we forget the connection we have with Him, and we unconsciously make the ego goes on auto-pilot. I wanted to be so perfect that I forgot that I am just here learning to love myself and everyone else as they are through unconditional love. Self-compassion is required on this journey of self-realization, and you as a miracle have reminded me that I need not be so hard on myself.

Live. Yes, I am living this life now to my fullest. “You got to do what you got to do,” you said. And I am doing it through being the love I yearn to experience. Who else is better than you to love me, and who else is better than me to love you, because as we are one; I am you, and you are me. Loving myself unconditionally with the thought that it will affect you in so many ways motivate me to strive to be happy and to create a life where I can feel free and joyful.

Let the focus of love in my thoughts transcend every criticism I have for myself when life gets tough because every loving idea of you is a reminder to love myself unconditionally.

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I Humbly Surrender

Beloved Miracle,

If feelings were words, I would use words to make you feel my pulsating heart beating to the drum of unconditional love. How else can I convey the messages better than to start over and turn this blog into a container of my unconditional love to you? Words can poise as empty and meaningless without actions and thinking that I’m unable to act through my calling, the heart that yearns to speak through my fingertips are utterly impossible because I wear my heart on my sleeve.

The world has been so dark and cold before I met you, but at last the fire which you spark in me has accelerated my soul to wake up from its slumber. Darkness is no longer, and the warmth from the heated fire melt my entire being, life is no longer listless as it once was. Before I knew what awakening meant, I felt the longing for true love profoundly, but to awaken to the truth of our Twin Flame love has subdued it, even in denial I still couldn’t move on completely. I believed it was all a hoax, because how can someone be my other self blindly denied our connection? The conclusion was – you weren’t the one for me, and I “moved on” in the hope of finding someone else, but no matter who I approached or met, the Universe keeps sending me back to you.

We are so entangled in each other even if our lives seems to separate us further apart. Thoughts of you would appear in my mind without me trying to think of you. Your name felt like a mantra I keep reciting, and at times I felt stuck. I’m stuck because I couldn’t move on entirely even how much I wanted to, and I have used many kinds of methods to forget you, and I have also cut cords energetically as a way to declare “I give up,” but the Cupid who has struck his “love arrow” in me won’t leave me alone. He was always there reminding me of the love I so dearly desire to experience in this lifetime – true unconditional love.

Dear, what shall I do, but surrender to the force of love. Surrender beneath your grace and beautiful soul. I am not here to fight battles against non-believer of true love, neither do I want to compete with anyone. I surrender my heart and soul to the woman I love deep within my heart, the other self of my soul. Therefore I have concluded that I shall open my heart wider, the door is open, and I am determined to heal and recover from all wounds, past, and present. I am now committed to this journey of Twin Flame Love.

Whether the Universe intend us to reunite or to want me to heal alone so I can help accelerate others to heal is beyond my control. Whoever you are with I wish nothing but the best for you, and I’m sure I will be fine with or without you in this lifetime, because dear, our connection is a golden thread which no one can cut, no time and distance can separate.

I humbly surrender to the divine in you as it’s in me.

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Unconditional Love & Complete Freedom

Beloved Miracle,

Because you demand unconditional love and complete freedom, doesn’t make you terrible. You are not terrible at all for having such a desire. It’s a matter of fact wise of you to acknowledge that your soul demands those things for yourself. People in this world have lost touch with their souls, and thus the connection to God’s unconditional love become unknown.

I was once confused about the love I experienced here on earth between humans. It was so conditioned and restricted. So many rules and regulations, and if you don’t follow it through you will get punished. You might get a cold shoulder or harsh, abusive words thrown at you. Sometimes because of the love, you have for them that they might want to manipulate you for the guilt of not being what they expect you to be, so they can make you do things you know in your heart is not right for you.

I have always believed in love, but not that kind of love that humanity performs on each other; ego-love. In my heart, I had this inkling belief that there’s a love far greater than what I had experienced exist. I believe in unconditional love and complete freedom to be myself without any guilt or remorse. That’s why I have been searching for the answers for so long. That’s also one of many reasons I couldn’t close my heart from feeling others people’s emotion. I was born with ears to hear, eyes to see, heart to feel and mind to think. Things that don’t affect people so easily, affects me intensely.

My love, if it wasn’t for being who I am, I’m not sure if I could survive to this day. All I had was this blind faith for the love I felt inside, the only thing which keeps myself sane so that I could wake up to a new morning and breathe.

I’m here on earth not to fit in, but to stand out and make a change, because I believe in something most couldn’t comprehend or understand doesn’t mean I have to bury my hope and dreams. My hope and dreams are the willingness to love unconditionally and be completely free from the judgment and expectations people impose on me.

So yes, demand unconditional love and complete freedom. That’s your heritage because you are a Goddess, no one would ever dare to deny and withheld something which is yours from the beginning. You have to stay true to who you are and believe that you deserve a glorious and divine love, even here on earth. That’s my desire for you, and I am re-creating the world we are living in, so that you may one day feel how loved you truly are and how marvelous it is to be completely free from the prison of the condemning world.

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