The Story of Unconditional Love

When she is unsure about something and hold it in while thinking if she is interested, want something more than friendship or just friendship, and still comes back each time because I am in love with her and decided to stay in love because I love unconditionally. We have known each other over a long haul and we are both singles at the time.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the door.* “Hey, what do you want?”

She who knocked:

*Smiles and says* “Oh, nothing.”

*I looks at her with questions mark and says* “Oh, ok, I have to sleep, so good-bye.”

*I closes the door*

*She leaves unsure and sad*

One week later.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the door.* “Hey, what do you want?

“She frowns a bit and says* “I need a hug.”

*My heart skips a beat and I opens my arms wide and says* “Oh, ok, come here then.” *I hugs her*

*I stops and looks at her and asks* “Feels good now?”

*She looks blank and says* “Yeah.”

*I am neutral and asks* “You need anything else?

*She looks up, thinks and says* “I don’t know.”

*My left brow goes up and stare her in the eyes* “Ok, then come back later, ok?”

*She smiles and nods and says* “OK.”

Two weeks later.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the door* “Hey, what’s up?”

*She stares down and says* “It’s cold outside, can I come inside?”

*I am worried and opens the door and says* “Yeah sure, come in.” *Let her comes inside*

*I points at the sofa and says* “There’s the sofa, and here’s the blanket. *Gives blanket to her*

*She takes it and sits down on the sofa.*

*I stands near her and asks* “Do you need anything more?”

*She thinks* “I don’t know.”

*I yawns and says* “OK, I will head to bed, let me know if there is something you need later ok?”

*She nods and lies down on the sofa*

*I walks towards the bedroom and says* “Good night.”

*She sits there a bit awkwardly and says* “Good night.”

2 AM at night.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the door and says with sleep in my eyes* “What is it?”

*She’s shy and says* “I am hungry.”

*I wipes the sleep from my eyes and says* “Ah, ok, wait, I will cook for you.”

*I walks towards the kitchen and cooks*

*She sits down at the kitchen table and waits*

7 minutes later with something fast and easy, noodles.

*Gives her the bowl of noodles and sits down the other side of the table and says* “Here, eat this, I’m sorry, it’s late, and you are hungry, so I want to make it fast.”

*She smiles and says* “Thank you, it’s fine.*

*I smiles and says* “Really? That’s good, eat.”

*She carefully eats since it’s hot*

20 seconds later.

*I looks at her eating, and says* “Is it good?”

*She chews a bit and swallows, looking a bit tired and then says* “I don’t know…”

*I laughs and stare at her with wide eyes and says* “You don’t know? OK, do you want something else?”

*She shakes her head and says* “No no, it’s good.”

*I smiles big and says* “Is it? Real good?”

*She eats some more and smiles and nods*

*I laughs and says* “That’s great, because it’s good, right?”

*She eats some more, chews then swallows and says* “Yes, it’s really good!”

*I yawns and says* “OK, but you eat that, I am going back to bed, I have work to do tomorrow.”

*She says nothing but is a bit sad within*

*I walk towards the bedroom and says* “Goodnight”

4:30 AM in the morning.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the bedroom door with sleep in my eyes and says* “Uhm, what is it?”

*She’s shy and says* “Uhm, I am not sure.*

*I am being neutral and says* “Oh, ok, come back later then.”

*I closes the door.*

5 AM in the morning.

*Knock-knock*

*I opens the door a bit sluggish and says* “Uhhmm… is it something wrong?

*She says a bit braver this time and says* “I’m scared.”

*I opens my eyes wide and surprised and says* “Oh?! Ok, I will come out, and we can talk.”

*I walks with her to the sofa and sits down, and then I say* “OK, tell me, what are you afraid of?”

*She holds onto the pillow and says* “I’m not sure.”

*I gently touches her hands* “It’s ok, I will sit here with you for a little while.”

*We both sits with a dim-lit light in silence*

1 second after.

*I stands up and says* “I will put on some music, wait here.*

“I put on some music and walk back to the sofa and says* “Uhm, I need to go to work soon, but we can listen to songs for a bit.”

*I sits beside her and lean back.*

*First song plays by Katy Perry – Unconditionally*

 

“Oh no, did I get too close oh?
Oh, did I almost see what’s really on the inside?
All your insecurities
All the dirty laundry
Never made me blink one time
Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally
Come just as you are to me
Don’t need apologies
Know that you are all worthy
I’ll take your bad days with your good
Walk through this storm I would
I’d do it all because I love you, I love you
Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally
So open up your heart and just let it begin
Open up your heart, and just let it begin
Open up your heart, and just let it begin
Open up your heart
Acceptance is the key to be
To be truly free
Will you do the same for me?
Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
And there is no fear now
Let go and just be free
‘Cause I will love you unconditionally (oh yeah)
I will love you
I will love you
I will love you unconditionally”

*She smiles and closes her eyes.*

3:57 minutes later.

*Second songs by Rachel Platten – Stand by you*

 

“Hands, put your empty hands in mine
And scars, show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open too
‘Cause I’m gonna stand by you
Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you’re hurting, but so am I
And love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
‘Cause I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we’re breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
Yeah, you’re all I never knew I needed
And the heart, sometimes it’s unclear why it’s beating
And love, if your wings are broken
We can brave through those emotions too
‘Cause I’m gonna stand by you
Oh, truth, I guess truth is what you believe in
And faith, I think faith is helping to reason
No, no, no, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
‘Cause I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we’re breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
I’ll be your eyes when yours can’t shine
I’ll be your arms, I’ll be your steady satellite
And when you can’t rise, well, I’ll cry with you on hands and knees
‘Cause I
(I’m gonna stand by you)
Even if we’re breaking down, we can find a way to break through (come on)
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’m gonna stand by you
Even if we can’t find heaven, I’ll walk through hell with you
Love, you’re not alone, ’cause I’m gonna stand by you
Love, you’re not alone
No, I’m gonna stand by you
(Even if we can’t find heaven, heaven, heaven)
I’m gonna stand by you”

3:46 minutes later.

*I looks at her smiling and walk towards the bedroom silently and turns off the light*

1 second later.

*She quickly opens her eyes and says with panic* “Are you leaving?”

*I stands at the door and says with mellow voice* “No, I will just go back to bed. I’m still here. Is it something else, are you afraid?”

*She says with broken voice and a bit unsure* “I’m scared of the dark…*

*I looks outside and sees it’s still dark* “Yeah, it’s winter, but wait; I will turn up the light for you.”

*I turns up the light and says* “Now is light, you don’t have to be afraid, but I have to leave soon, going for work.”

*She looks up at the light and then back at me and says* “I am afraid of being alone.”

*I smiles at her and says* “Oh, then what if you go for a walk with me until it’s light again?”

*She lights up and asks* “Really? Can I?”

*I smiles at her and says* “Yeah, sure, I can work later, I am my own boss anyway.”

*She jumps up and gets ready*

*I laughs and says* “Let me get ready first and then we can take a walk.”

30 minutes later.

*I am fully dressed with makeup and walks towards her and says* “OK, I’m ready, let’s go.”

*She is tired and says* “I’m not sure if I should.”

*I stares blankly at her and says with a neutral voice* “Ah, I see, hmm, afraid of the cold too?”

*She smiles and nods and asks* “How do you know?”

*I laughs and says* “It’s winter and you came because it’s cold. I just remembered it. Why and what you asked me when you came.”

*Her heart skips a beat and she wants to smile but refrain herself*

2 seconds later.

*I smiles to her and stares her in the eyes while saying gently* “Then, let’s talk.”

*I points to the sofa and says* “Sit down, and let’s have a nice chat.”

*We walk towards the sofa and sits down, and then I say* “You know what, it’s going to be light soon now since it’s nearly 6 AM in the morning. You apparently need some sleep, and I don’t think you have slept at all. You are really scared are you?”

*She’s braver and says* “Yeah, but I don’t know why, but everything is so dark and cold and I don’t want to be alone.”

*I looks her in the eyes and says* “Yeah, sure, it’s winter, people get easily depressed this time of the year. But you are not alone. I’m here.*

*She smiles*

*I looks at her in the eyes still and says* “You don’t have to be afraid, you can always call me or come by whenever you need me to be with you, but I am not always available, I have work you know, and I really need sleep. *Laughing*.”

*She looks scared and says* “Yeah, but, it means you can’t always be there for me.”

*I looks serious and says* “No, I can’t. You have to learn to fly *smiles* and really be with yourself too.”

*She fidgets with her fingers while looking down* “Uhm, I don’t have wings, and I don’t like myself.”

*I gasp with surprise in my eyes* “Oh, no, but I love you, why don’t you like yourself?*

*She looks up and looks shocks* “You do? Really?”

*I smiles and says* “Yes, I said it before, didn’t you remember?”

*She’s shy and says* “I wasn’t sure you really did or do, but today and tonight I saw you did all these things for me, and I kinda felt it, but I don’t know.”

*I looks with questions in my eyes* “Still not sure?”

*She thinks* “Not really.”

*I sighs and says* “Well, sometimes we aren’t sure of anything, and when it’s about love, we tend to be unsure, but it’s ok, such things can take time too. But I love you long before you actually come over so frequently these days. I am not sure myself why, but we are friends, and it’s ok even though I felt something.”

*She looks with questions in her lips and eyes* “Really? What did you feel?”

*I looks at her a bit shy, but I never takes time to tell what I really feel* “Well, you gave me mixed signals here and there, that’s what I felt.”

*She looks embarrass*

1 second later.

*I looks at her and excuses herself* “But I could be wrong, so don’t worry about it since we are friends, but I know I have feelings for you.”

*She refrains from smiling but says bravely* “Sometimes I want to kiss you.”

*I looks her deep in the eyes*

*A moment goes, and then I break the silence and says* “You came over and needed a hug, and you want to kiss me, and I gave you food and everything, are you sure you want to kiss me just to kiss me? Just the body?”

*She shakes head rapidly and says* “NO! But I am not sure…”

*I kisses her*

*Butterflies in her tummy*

1 second later.

*I stops and asks with strict but yet with mellow voice* “Are you sure now?”

*She brights up and smiles and blushes*

*I laughs and asks* “Butterflies in your tummy?”

*She nods and smiles ear to ear*

*I laughs again and says* “They are my children. I gave birth to them, right?

*She laughs and says* “Yeah, they are and you did!”

*I laughs too and says* “You know what, they are yours too because they are inside your tummy!*

*We both laughs*

*5 seconds later and we still laugh*

*I laugh and says in the between* “You want to stay?”

*She looks surprised and asks with a happy voice* “Really? Can I? For how long?”

*I smiles while looking at her and says* “For as long as you want to stay.”

*She thinks and then says* “I’m not sure…”

*I laughs and says* “You know what, you can stay as long as you want, we don’t need time, and certainly there’s nothing certain about anything, and why should we bother with time.”

*She laughs and nods happily*

*I giggles and says* “You can actually just move right in, and we don’t need to think about the outcome.”

*She brights up and says* “Really? CAN I?”

*I laughs again and ensures her* “Yeah, you can… but no sex!”

*She sits with a questions mark and a bit disappointed but braver now and asks* “Why not?”

*I smirks and says* “Because then we have to be together for real and I know you are not sure, or you don’t know. That’s why!”

*She laughs and says boldly* “NO! This time I know for sure, I want you, because I am in love with you, and I want to be with you. Infinitely! And eternally, because as you said, there’s no time!”

*I blushes, and she smirks*

Unconditional love can change a person, and you will always have to open your heart wider and let your beloved come inside, but you are not submissive because you are strong, you can say no when you feel it’s not right. You are brave enough to say what you mean because you are sure of yourself, you know what you want and need. Everyone is afraid to open themselves up, mostly when life has been difficult with heartbreaks and setbacks, especially when you have been through a lot of pain and struggle. No one comes empty-handed, but they are just not sure if it’s safe to give since everyone is prone to take more than they give, you become even hurtful when you give to get. So don’t be afraid to open yourself up about feelings and hurts. Sometimes you got to heal yourself first and love yourself first if you have always desired a true and authentic love. No one is dumb about it, but since most people don’t actually understand unconditional love, it’s easy to let others taken advantage of you because you never learned to set boundaries, but eventually, when you have the yearning and desiring to be loved back, then it’s always a good start to look for ways to understand and love yourself. Always looks inwards your own self, and look for where the cracks and pain are, and pour self-love through those cracks and pain. Nobody is perfect, and you are that nobody because you are perfect even with imperfection. Why not love yourself? Life is too short if you keep looking for faults in others behavior towards you, but even if you do? Ask yourself, did I allow this? If yes, then their behaviors are mirrors to your self-love because you know what? We are one. Relationships teach us valuable things about ourselves. And we will only get hurt because we let them. No one can pain us more than ourselves because it’s us who let the other continue hurting us, we let them by limiting ourselves, by thinking of how they think about us, by continuing in letting them do what makes us feel wrong, I said wrong because abusive behaviors are wrong. And it’s also because we are abusive towards ourselves, that’s why we keep letting others be abusive towards us. Don’t let it happen if you love them, but even if you do, just, check in with your feelings. The body and heck, the mind might say it’s good to be abuse, but our heart, well, it will say otherwise.

The heart is our shelter, our guides, and our protector, don’t let your guardian and guard killed. Unconditional love for yourself, is unconditional love for your beloved, because, in the end, we are one. In heart, mind, body, and soul.

The End.

Crystallize

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